Online...

You really know what I think...

Finally you online...

thank you^^

Repeat...

That place I went such time!
Yet, my brain automatically appear a similar face!
Right...
That is your face!

Bowling...
A game that I long time didnt play,
when I entered that place,
memories remain me,
I still remember those about you!

Im loser!

I used without U,
but doesnt mean I can forget U...

I saw people play game in there,
I was slight smile,
U really sharply in the game...

I still remember,
concentrate play that game,
You are so confident and serious,
you like challenge,
just choose high level to play,
even lose, also not like a loser!

I like saw your concentrate look,
saw that machine, I was slight smile againnn....

stop here!

nothing~~
just write something about u only...
ok...
gtg right now!

coz exam coming!
I will study hard...

OUR MEMORIES,
I will repeat and repeat and repeat..
never boring for me!

U?!^^

good night....

一点。一滴

可以说我很着重小细节，
也可以说我，
在2011的最后那几天，
越来越想念他！

这一些，我都不否认。

我真的很想念！

上次印海报时，
听到他人的电话响，
那人的电话铃声，
在我心目中，那是他专属的电话铃声。

因为他就是用那电话铃声，
每次当他电话响时，
那铃声就会在我耳边缠绕，
我逐渐习惯了！

也在我心里烙下了....

听一次...愣一次.....

今天去游戏场，
玩类似音乐的游戏，
曾经，
我看着你很流利的跟随着音乐按动，
你的速度很快！

我更喜欢你的玩游戏时，很认真地样子。

我就是那么爱，无论是你的背影还是你的笑容，
我就是无法自拔的爱上。

为什么，我可以那么深爱着你?!
为什么你要带给我那么多回忆?!
为什么你每次都让我流泪也让我心碎，
还可以若无其事的面对我?!

你到底是什么人?!
为什么你就是那么古怪，
为什么你那么古怪我还是喜欢上你?!

At last....
Even I wrote many why,
You also wont come back in my life....

You long time didnt on9,
I worried....

很想求你，
你可以上网吗?!

因为现在我只能靠面子书知道你的近况！

上网，好不好?!

不要我让我担心了....

我当然知道这些是白担心的，
只是我控制不了！

最近魂不守舍，
情绪有点混乱，
可能是你作怪，
我每天都很想念你....

I miss you badly....

直。率

感觉我做人好像太直率了，
没有隐藏自己的感觉！

没有秘密的人感觉很开朗，
但那人往往很容易自己太直率而感到没有安全感，
只是，有时候不说出来有东西在心里躲藏着，
一定要说出来才感到痛快。

对啦！每个人都感觉我都不能藏秘密，
只是要看情况吧！
如果不是什么大事，
何必躲躲藏藏....

我很欣慰，我姐信任我，
把她的秘密告诉我，
虽然我有跟朋友说，
只是我朋友都不知道是谁，
所以就直言了！

我知道他们都会不信任我，
也好！

也不想知道太多，
所以不要跟我说，
我也不想听。

从今天开始，
我要做个很神秘的人，
有什么不管我事，
他人的事不需要我大肆公布...

郭淑慧，你的口最好封紧一点，
保持一点神秘感，
让他人对我有感觉，
这很重要XD

Merry Christmas

christmas eve,

I accompany my mum,

Im tired recently,

dont know why suddenly not on mood to celebrate,

lazy to date my fren hang out,

juz simply sms my fren and HIM.

If I dont have sms him,

my heart will uncomfortable,

even he didnt reply me.

bless him all the best,

and hope he will enjoy his celebration.

I dont know how about him recently,

we lost contact,

He forget me.

2012,

I will forget U too!

hope that!

merry christmas to u,

I know I will used whole life to forget U,

its truth,

I never deny it...

lonely christmas,

I miss u badly...

独。立

我不讨厌太忙，
我是讨厌忙完后，
要回到空闲的时刻。

那时候，脑袋很会胡思乱想，
接着，他的电话号码就会出现在我的手机里。
我好后悔，我真的好后悔！

算了！这是我的选择。
没有怪谁，只有怪自己！

某一天，看见你的上线，
我从不在意，过几秒后，就愣了！

最近真的很累，所以慢了半拍，
终于....
c you online....

I was non-feeling at all,
you're leave my life,
I get back my freedom...

虽然我愣着，但我的期待已不再。

看着你上线，然后自己下了线....

这就是我们的生活。

你不再主动，证明你不再在乎了。

所以我们都没有错过，我们只是拥有过...

我疲累，不是我忙碌；我疲累，是因为我藏了太多负情绪，而且找不到地方释放，
这里是最好释放空间...

写完后，我的内心是空荡荡的^^

Goodnight....2.34a.m.

好。像

您的事情，一直影响着我的心情，
我的情绪很漂浮，
到现在还不能接受您的离去。

送到您到金龙山，
您长眠在那，
您到极乐世界后，
好好走。

@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@

最近你很神秘的谈电话，
那电话号码不是本地的号码,
我的疑惑心越来越大，
可能那是真的，
我的第六感都是糟事，
所幸，每件事都不是真的，
我多希望这件事都是我sense错。

如果真的发生了，
我会坚强面对，
但现在我在逃避，
不知如何说出来，
然后再顾虑如果说出来后，
会有什么后果?!

我不想让妈妈想那么烦，
而且现在也看到他很疼妈妈，
但我很生气的时，当妈妈那么担心他时，
他竟然作这样的事。

我真的不能若无其事的假装不知道，
发生了就发生了。

就静观其变吧！

我宁愿我怀疑他，
都不想是妈妈怀疑他...

已经有最坏的打算，
往好的方面想，那就不会那么辛苦。

只要他有给我们钱，对我们好，
最重要的是懂得回家，
其他事，我也不敢多想了。

不要跟我说你后悔，因为那是你的选择....

恐。惧

我的能力真的有限，
突然很害怕即将发生的事，
不是说好，勇敢面对未来的吗？

那，为什么心中的恐惧逐渐扩大?!

有一堵很高不可攀的墙，
头抬得有点痛，
然后就有少少退缩的感觉，
我就是那么软弱，
才会一直被打败，
成为一个看似很精灵，其实是个空壳，内涵都很糟糕的一个人。

不能一无是处，
不能那么我虐待自己，
为什么那讨人厌的任性回来了?!

为什么我就不能成熟一点，
面对所有事都能处置泰然...

知道你的时候，
说真的，我还不太能接受！

毕竟你竟然用这样的方式放弃你自己，
不是说你的选择是错的，
只是给你个警告，然后好好的观察，
说真的，我不希望这件事是真的，
因为我还等待那一丝期望，
虽然我的心很淡了，
我毕竟还是很在乎那一个结束的答案。
那感觉会随着时间而飘走，
而你呢?你的人生还是那么迷茫吗?

希望你爱自己多一点，
因为我不想看到我爱你的人那么的颓废。

我们曾经拥有过，
不是吗?！

我听过一句话，
‘当你现在不谈恋爱时，并不代表遇不到对的人，而是心里有一个人你还没放下。’

我一直都有等待，只是一味自己遇到时，心里还是往你那边住。

我就是那么的专一，
看着伤口流血，自己还拿盐往伤口上洒...

缘分就是那么奇妙，
不说了...

先顾好，我的导演梦，然后顾好我的新房间，
努力和尽力就好...

明天我就要参观astro loh....
really excited....
waiting and 期待哦！

晚安^^

热。血

每个讲座会都有莫名的力量，

怪不得总有人会去被人洗洗脑，

然后再努力的迈进自己的梦想和目标。

我承认，有时候是需要正能量，

让自己继续的往自己的路走，

偶尔，我会迷失在路途中，

但很感谢成功的人士大方的分享自己的经历和体验，

让我知道成功真的真的不是必然的。

当自己很想做时，

就拼命的去做，

然后得到后，

如果没有得到心里的成就感，

证明那件事并不是我要做的事。

很感谢主讲人的热血，

和九把刀的那么勇的自信，

开发我的勇气和潜能，

或许我就需要这些莫名的能量，

推动我，鼓励我！

而不是那些，为了现实的利益而努力催眠我的人。

每个方式都没有错，

只是有些方式不适合自己时，

勉强到最后还是得不到完美。

当我被分配到那一组时，

我心里平静得很，

在没有心理准备之下，

我还可以很从容的面对眼前那一切，

那一刻，

我发觉自己很勇敢，

没有怨天哭地，

我真的习惯的面对了。

很荣幸被他选上，

很开心，我们还是在一起。

当你想尝试跟其他人相处时，

你同时也想想，

别人是否会选你。

这次，

我的职位挺吃重的，

导演....

这职位对我来说，

是个很遥远的地方，

我没有争取，

只是他们都认为我办的到，

只是我真的认为，

希望我真的能办到。

我们的职位都很压力，

可是这次真的是很好的挑战，

虽然心里仍然有害怕，

只是，最后的机会让我发挥，

如果我做不好，

到最后，我会终生遗憾。

最后的机会，

好好的珍惜和努力。

好不好是其次，

尽不尽力才是重点！

九把刀刚刚说了，

自我激励的很悲哀，

但我悲哀到很有动力。

保持我的热血，

她很羡慕我现在所做的事，

我也算是帮她完成她还没完成的梦想吧！

我很感恩，

因为这是我的选择。

要把握的选择，

从后悔，变难忘^^

你。会支持我的吧！

现在4.35，

我知道我有犯坏习惯，

晚安，俊！

动。力

发高烧，真的很痛苦，

但心痛的感觉都痛我都是过了，

这病痛都我来说是小儿科...

我本来有工作的，

但timing不对，

把工作推了，

真的很不舍，

只是身体状况不允许。

也信息你可不可以载我，

没想到你也生病了。

有那么巧吗?!

最近发现，没有你在我身边，

我做任何事都很无力，

没有之前的原动力。

我不该为你而活，

真不应该。

你没有给任何承诺，

我却傻傻的爱着，

每个人都叫我忘记，

但，这不代表没有发生过...

不是吗？

我生病差不多痊愈了，

你呢?

好好照顾自己...

说别人，我自己也不会照顾自己...

哈哈！

晚安...俊！

sick

my heart sick,
my whole body sick,
Im cried, when I need you badly.

I need panadol when suffer,
I have a high fever,
so hot, but my hand and my sole so cool,
wear sock then ate medicine and blur sleep...

my brain  has an impulse(冲动), wanna sms him and ask him can help me buy panadol to me?!

Finally, I cant..

I really scared heard the bad answer,
I dont know to endure my sick and he give me hurt,
like so pity..

who also dont want have a sad life.

Im have a new life,
enjoy, enjoy and enjoy...

life in happiness,
without him, not without your own life.
he just a part of my life.

One day, I will sms him,
I will...

hope dont get hurt anymore,
just fren,ok?!

goodnight,KC^^

3rd party

你算是我的回忆吗?!
我还是记得我们的回忆，
多年后，如果我打给你的时候，
然后想起我，
笑声依然，依然熟悉彼此的声音。

你好像有新对像了，
看见你朋友的留言，
大概猜到吧！

慢慢习惯没有你的信息，
也慢慢放下这包袱，
背了两年，
都感觉疲累，
把心思放在另一个地方，
从新开始，
谢谢你，让我有从新开始的机会。

当你需要特地想起他时，
证明你已经不在乎，
也不把他放在心的特别角落。

你都不想要了，
我何必再挂念?!

看了那些年，我们一起追的女孩，
原来当你正正喜欢，甚至爱这个人时，
不一定要在一起，
而是衷心祝福他，让他过得更好。

我们在现实中，糊里糊涂在一起，
也在混乱的情况下分开，
然后在不明确的关系中，纠缠不清，
或许暧昧的事可是最美好的，
只是这不是一场暧昧，
而是一场速食爱情，
像快餐，很快就能得到，
也很快就能解决掉。

简单来说，我就已擦身而过解释吧！
很不让人留下印象的过客....

连在平行时空，我们都擦身而过的。

还是我还是你的第三者?!

我们再相见，

我会很惊讶，也很开心，
因为我的眼前是我的回忆。

希望，我们都不会把对方忘掉一干二净....

那些年....有你的陪伴。

曾经有你的肩膀，温暖了我的心房。

晚安。俊^^

 

我们早就应该要分开，

我们本来就用这样的方式过自己的生活。

现在，谁都没有烦到谁。

我忙，你忙；

你冷淡，我退出；

你冷笑，我无奈；

你得意，我放弃；

一句话谁得太对，

就是，

有时候，

你最想得到的人，其实那是你最应该放弃的人。

我很想得到，

但我并不知道，

得到后的路要怎样走，

所以我选择放弃。

那怒气，

赶走那浪漫的思想，

留下了现实的画面。

我。很。累。

也。很。轻。松。

放。下。鲁。

我在这边。你在那边。

过各自的生活。

这星期有3个年中考，

一切顺利。

今晚很累，

睡了！

晚安...俊^^

Salient memory

Bowling, GSC and all about the entertainment area at 1U
where influence me deeply.

Your face keep appear on my mind.
Shit....Fuck...whatever!
what the***

I should to speak those words.
can tell me why..

long time didnt went there.
not to escape the memory and you.
is I really wont went there because of shopping,
just you will bring me go there only.

feel like me go there with you only..
NoNoNO...

I also have go with my fren,
but my mind keep pop out our memory.

I didnt cry,I was non sense saw around.
remember your smile, your hug, your angry and your non feeling shit face.

yea...
I specially keep there as our memory,
520 we went there, but dont know why went there.

For you as normal...
For me is special.

Finally, you replied me.
I not excited, even dont want to reply him.

maybe get many disappoint,
now really be disheartened(灰心),
same with give up?!
Hmm...almost same gua!!!

1U....
I most like there,
even miss you so much when go there..

Sometime, love somewhere is no reason..

simple love there^^

angry

I dont know angry him or angry myself...

know his pattern,

why still force myself miss him...

I cut my long hair,

many people praise my hair style,

suitable me and didnt regret it...

I will cry if the hair was ugly.

change my look,change my mind, change my target too...

Im single...

from now,I wont contact him anymore,

unless he sms me first...

if not, we are stranger.

Im cried because of YOU...

worthless...

My tear is priceless,

you insult my tear.

bad guy cant change back be a good guy.

give him a chance,

then who give me a chance?

myself?!

thats right...

wont change because of other,

wanna change because myself.

you not a glamour guy,

you just a normal guy...

somehow...

I wont forget in my life...

never...

about you,

you always on my mind.

goodnight^^KC

撑。伞

 

抱着膝盖，抱着自己，

象征着自我保护。

你的肩膀像这把伞，

当我的情绪刮风下雨时，

你的肩膀出现在我面前，

脸上下起了雨，

然后你的衣服吸收了我的雨水。

巨蟹座是很专一的人，

我不是。

我只是不会表达我对你的爱有多深，

照片里的我，

都是很活泼开朗，

当我看回这些照片时，

感到很陌生，

像我站在镜子前，

看到一模一样的陌生人。

我。开始不在乎。

因为我看见你的冷漠，

是不是我开始放弃等待的同时，

你也放弃了等待?!

我过得很快乐，

因为我不想看到另一面的自己。

那排斥的苦瓜脸，

人家不会同情的苦，

只会虚伪的与你分享快乐。

这就是在这社会上的生存之道。

你。

是一枚钉，

狠狠地用锤子敲打自己的头，

钻进我的心。

当你狠心的拔回出来时，

我的心流血不止，

我阻止你的离去，

回到了原位，

只是你的心已不在。

受尽折磨的伤口，
终究会痊愈，
当自己咬紧牙关，
用力的拔钉子拉出...

goodnight^^KC

Influence

today you didnt reply me,
maybe you too busy today,
didnt on FB also.

my heart feel uncomfortable,
need somewhere to spend out my mood.

U again?!
influence my mood easily.
I like this pattern to keep our relationship,
yet you not cooperation.
why other can enjoy in their love,
but me cant?!

who problem?!
is you or me?!

our relationship cannot have a happy ending?!

our ending is I was turned and left you,
but you dont have any response there,
leave alone quietly.

you may said, we not suitable each other,
I will said, why you havent try then comfirm that?!
unfair.

I need heard the final answer from your mouth,
if not, I won't give up.

Sorry for my disturb.

good night...KC!

任。性

你知道吗?!

我这次不想用英文表达我的心情。
就让我任性一次。

很不争气，每当看偶像剧我就会情不自禁的对号入座。
我就那么想和你会有美满结局，
最后我并没有。

我往往都是从主角被调到当第二女主角去了。
就是得不到爱的那位，
过去的事就留给回忆吧！

或许更好还在前面，不是吗?!

我不该哭，我为什么要那么可怜兮兮乞求你回到我身边?!

真的值得为你付出吗?!

流过的泪水，我抹了多少回?
那些回忆，在脑里重复了几回?
我的心房，被那些伤痛伤了几回？

这一些，是不是最好的证明，
证明我忘不掉，
即使狠狠地忘记，那空空的感觉，
很不自在，很麻木，甚至产生了无限的恐惧。

你能不能让我任性的爱你一回，
即使你的心已不在?!
施舍我也好，同情我也好，
我不在乎。

能让我有一段扎实的回忆，
就算我们分手了，我也甘之如饴。

你知道吗?!

我好久没有见到你了，
想看见你的样子，不知你过得怎么样;
想听到你的声音，是否还是一样；
想牵牵的大手，感受被你保护的感觉；
想靠靠你的肩膀，听听你的心跳。

就让我过过女主角的瘾，好不好?!

还是签个契约，到了限期我真的离开，
那你就能脱身了。

想得周到吧!hehe~~

让我有个美满的结局。
可以吗?!

我讨厌下雨天，
因为你不在，没人帮我挡雨。

今天天气很凉爽，只是你去了哪里?!

我想你...

晚安啦！俊...

Giraffe's Birthday

 

He is Mr.Giraffe.

because he likes mention his neck is long when compare height with me,

so that, he has this nick name.

他是。我第一次主动告白的男生；

他。拒绝了我；

他。的理由很充足。

我们还是朋友，

我们还是可以把那件事收得好好，

然后继续的向对方微笑。

今年的生日，

我不是不请自来，

而是有人约我。

当看到我时，

有点吓到，

然后就摆回他冷酷的样子，

曾经的感觉消失不见，

找回朋友的味道。

做情侣会有一层膜，

做朋友反而轻松自在，

这才是我们的关系。

第一次，

零距离的脸对脸，

那心跳的感觉找不回了，

那暗恋的情感早就飞到他方，

就纯粹是朋友的距离，

健康的心态。

原来，

放下是怎样的。

就是，

对方对你做什么举动，

你都无动于衷。

 今晚，

我真的很欢愉，

我们之间的距离没有那件事儿疏远，

反而，

我更一层的了解你，

了解那班朋友，

越勉强自己要做到，

往往都会做不到。

我保持不在意的心态，

最终得到我心里想得到的。

不要计划，才是最好的计划。

生日快乐，

长颈鹿^^

break UP

一.當愛情不在的時候，請對他（她）說聲祝福，畢竟曾經愛過。

二.結束以後，別告訴他我恨你，愛情是兩個人的事，錯過了大家都有責任。

三.離開以後想到的，定是落寞的畫面，請你忘記它。一個人總要有個新的開始，別讓過去把你栓在悲哀的殿堂。

四.別說你最愛的是誰，人生還很長，誰也無法預知明天。也許你的真愛還在下一秒等著你。

五.說分手的時候不要吵鬧，畢竟兩個在在一起那麼久。 分來他（她）也會難過，只是他（她）比較明智，不想束縛你的或他的明天。好聚好散，以後還是朋友，大家都有自己的無奈。

六.別把哀傷掛在嘴上，每個人都有自己的故事。活著不是為了懷念昨天，而是要等待希望。讓大家都看到你的堅強，離開他你也可以過得很好。

七.離開以後，大聲的告訴他（她）：「我愛你，與你無關。」愛是你的權利，把想說的都說出來。平靜的回憶你們的過去，然後哭吧。哭完就把一切都留在昨天，永遠不要去觸及。

八.想他（她）的時候，就想想他（她）的好，他的笑，記得曾經愛過一個人。別去管最後是誰開始了背叛，開心過就好。

九.分手了就做回自己。一個人的世界同樣有月升月落，也有美麗的瞬間。把他（她）歸為記憶。
十.一個人的世界總需要另一個人做陪襯。他（她）離開了，那是他（她）襯不起你。相信自己會有更好的明天。

why

two days left...
afterthat,I may be change my lifestyle.
something will happened,it's can't change.

even you said many times,
really hope that happen never occur before.
unfortunately,
it's happened, you appear.
it's happened, you disappear.
it's happened, you appear again.

you get my heart easily.
instead, I cant get your heart easily.

I hate, why you can do it,
I cant...

I had noticed your status.

your friend also feel you bad mood recently,
can tell me why?!

one of the status,you said...
I never understand you before.

you especially put 'you',
seem this person really important for you.

you know,
I have anticipate in Hari Raya even I will leaving KL few days,

My mind keep repeated My Singapore Trip in last year.
You gave me a surprise,even that time I just be your spare tyre.
I know last time she went to Taiwan,
I thought you will following with her,
But you didn't.

first time sms you in singapore.
you dont care where am I.
I feel happy you keep in touch with me.
maybe that time you also contact with her.

If has a chance, I will do all my best stick with you.
maybe face a lot of obstacles, hope all can overcome.
I think back all about of you.
good memories, sad memories.

its keep agrue there.
forget really difficult.

If can,I hope I can help them.
before is my fault...

they feel cant forget each other,
I totally quit the game.
they still miss each other.
I feel it.

after exam,after trip
I have a challege,
dont know success or not,
but I will do the best.

money...Im coming.

new life....

Good night...KC

stick wih you

What should I do now?!

stomachache

Hate this feel now!
why girl should bear the period suffer...

stomach pain like hell..
cant do anything,let it keep pain..

if not feeling well, can eat medicine control it.
but now cant eat medicine, afraid will adverse effect after eat.
keep rolling on the bed, cant concentrate on my revision.

Monday coming...
can I skip next whole week then direct jump to next next week,
my hatzah trip...ohya!!
Waiting that day coming, leave malaysia 3 days..

let me escape all happen and problem 3 days,
afterthat only decide and settle all.
now really dullness, izzit period influence me be stupid,
my response a bit hesitant when face something.

today was meaning day..
I like the talk,except the part of introduce of insurance.

I like what he said,I know in the whole life we should face the choice.
yet, WE should be gratified, because we had choice in our life,
if not, we control by other,we cannot do what we like.

sometime choice will let us be contradiction.
somehow whether want or not?!

maybe dont think anymore better.
concentrate on my exam after my trip only think^^

now really miss your shoulder,
then use your hand touch my stomach,
because your hand so warm,
I like that feel^^

today you didnt online,
where did you go?!
guess...

I make sure one thing that is you enjoy your life now,
me too^^
god bless you...

Goodnight^^KC...

Hurt

You're hurt me badly.
I dont know when feel it,
Now I cant stronger myself,
Just wanna hide myself in a nobody place then cry AGAIN.

No need inform who to comfort me U are nothing,
Those words heard many time till no feeling.

Watched touching idol drama just now,
Im cried...because We had ended,
I cant like actor fall in love with you,
Why...I regret agreed to your request.

Forget...I dont know how to write this word already,
even forget that meaning...
I just know you and everything have always been on my mind.

You keep groaning(唉声叹气)there, for what?!
Is for me see or her?!

What I worry about?!
Izzit worry you have a new gf?!
OR You never cant be my bf?!

the reason is fade, nevertheless BREAK UP is real.

BREAK UP?!

I smile...

perhaps...we should'nt be starting!!

Now...Had a Start, yet havent a END.

stubborn really for nothing...

Something wrong that only stubborn with you only...

Kixiao...

Tonight waste long time to write the bitch in here..
hu.........release but havent start my revision?!

Damn....

Switch off all about you in my heart temporary.
No....Is never!!

am I depression?!

Ohno...really worthless!

LAST time presuming myself...

Emo...Stay away from me~~~~~~~~~~~

Everyday Im sufferingggggggxD

no feel

so boring at home,
wake up then go refrigerator find something to cook,
after my stomach full sat infront TV,
finish TV drama feel tired and sleep again...

That is my lazy day at home..
cant go out because out of cash,
I wanna go SEM BREAK end of the month..

Even stay 1 night also need money to spend,right?!

He had 1 week didnt reply my sms,
haiz!!
I know what he thinking,
his friend said he like to escape the truth when something changed.

but he deny...

you are guy when you have this attitude that really spoil your image in my heart.
ok...I know!you dont care about this..
You never care my feel from start.

your status wrote:
you treat me coldness,I feel that so unfamiliar.

I hope we better be stranger.
and just say hello to goodbye.

I wont cry because of you, wont so to persist keep our contact,
at the end, Im lost...
lost many thing especially my happy time..
Fly away!!

But now..
cant fly away that is my final exam,
turn on my study mood,plz...

I really need it...

Gambateh...ddo all my best!!

Goodnight...KC

tonight sure have a nice sleeping,
because accompany with the raining night^^

escape

What is you wanna escape now?!
I really dont understand you,
when I see your comment,
Im disappoint...

share a meaning sentance:
be your friend better than be your lover.

ok...I know you in short time,
even can said we not really understand each other,
We know, because we need a people beside with us during boring time.

has a partner when wanna watch movie,
Has a people when wanna sing k.

useless....
i cant handle at all,
whatever you do...

I'm just can see your status in your FB,
That's all...

Nothing on you...


be your normal friend,rite?!

I will do well^^

doesnt mean I give up my dream...

Dont know why my feeling quite complicated when know something...

Fuck........

is about your bad thing..

your mettle...

You are guy,dont simply give up myself there,

I know you can do it...

I will shared this happiness with you in the back when you success.

dont to blow off what happened let you emo there,
change yourself.

Waiting for you.

I wont forget you in future...FOREVER!!

Goodnight^^KC...

Relationship

know I realize we how to maintain our relationship,
It is sms, WE never meet again,right?!

even once chance, you also don't want give,
let me hurt,let me cry.

what happen let you give up our relationship?!
my attitude?!my temper?!or I like spend money then you don't like?!

or you feel our relationship as like a game？
Finish the game that mean our relationship is game over...

At first,I also feel our relationship like a game,
We cant see in the future when we together,
we really complicated, I might not have confident with you in the future,
We always has quarrel because the small matter.

BUT...
The bad thing is before feel like a game,
now I'm serious face this relationship,
I'm really love you, but you quit the game.

I like your status,
Maybe our relationship is over the friendship，
yet havent reach the love position.

the timing was wrong,
I met the wrong people in the wrong time.

if repeat my life again,
I also choose this way again,
Because of YOU.

I will treasure our sweet time....
even lost you at last.

FRIEND...

GOODnight...KC!

3 sec

Today your status is can I love you 3 seconds?
If you asked me, I sure answer yes.

I like tonight sms, I like your inform where you go and eat.
You said no gf sure no celebrate.
You had dating, but you reject.

tried many time, tried to persuade you,
but fail...
give up because Im tired.

when I saw the sms Im down.
you really put me in fren basket.

You really willing heartless let me alone,
I not waiting,dont know why feel disappoint when you write this.

I couldnt get the best answer in the question.
Maybe I also dont want what answer is the best...

So....move on!

today I went HanXin college screening day,
I know his Ex had attend also.
Im curious,tried to meet her.I never saw her before.

finally...
I didnt saw her.
just saw her in photo!

we should not had met,
its embarassed if she know who am I...

better we are stranger.
Better we didnt meet forever then this secret will keep forever.

all happened had past.

My heart still is U,why cant past also?!

Goodnight...dear KC~~~

I know...U wont see itXD

Emo

My tired look...
tired extremely,done my production!
last min need settle the problem,
for video,15 sec really long,need use long time to settle it,
U know!!!!!

after my wake up,hvnt my breakfast,
den brounght the heavy laptop went college and started edit the video.

I repeat and repeat the video,
stuck....the dialogue and the sound effect,
it's a nightmare...
every group also have the argue,
cz every group also has fucker........

haha!!!
Now....final exam coming...
stop blogger,stop miss sum1,stop emo.....

i know I Emo...
quite serious loh!!

I hate U...really!!
But I cant forget U....seriously!!
I adapt my life now,
sometime sms u,sometime find u for release my angry and stress...

I really dont want got any change,
U can dont want reply me,
but dont want forget who am I....

I know our love can't repeat,
Ur heart dont have my position,
Im hurt till no feel,
cz our memories still in my heart long time oready...

I happy when u to comfort me,
I relax when u reply me immediately.
I smilee when read ur sms,
I cried when ur nomber in my hp..

I will smile while cry when ur status put in the relationship,
cz I'm relief, my heart had broken...

I repeated those thing in above,
U is the most important and unforgettable person in my life,
eventhough we have gf and bf....

and just now, sum1 chase me,
miss u immediately,
if i accept, I cant sms u,I cant chitchat with u...

Because of u,I scared accept new relationship,
I just wanna keep our relationship,
other 1 non my business.....

Stupid......

Stress

Hate this production,really get stress recently.
I really don't know how to use sony vegas,
How to create the video?!

no more time to learn such thing,
force myself learn these thing in the shortest time.
It really sacrifice me,I need help.

I've sit in the corner.
feel like useless,wanna cry badly but cant make the sound.
just can cry quietly.

I wont feel the team work when all of group member stay together,
like stranger stay together finish the shooting then back home.
its silly and boring.

I need your encourage,
I also need your big hug support me until finish the editing.
I also also need your sms accompany me solve every problem.

I'm contradiction.
hate Saturday, also like Saturday so much.

I'm stuck here.
I've hope receive a special SMS but I need the time to get some rest at the same time.

I feel that REST is the most important for me.

So that..SLEEP now!
Sony vegas....ignore it temporarily.

Good night World.
and
GOOD NIGHT DEAR^^

Now,you should enjoy your sweet time and dream someone><

Annoying

Don't know why I could not face this assginment,

my position is Editor,

don't have any editing skill,

but I know,I will learn.

I scared.

scared I could not do well,

every position also important,

hope all done successfully.

Today,my brain think all of negative thought.

I think HE will ignore my sms,

When I received the sms, I thought that is rusbbish sms,

never think he will remember replied.

stupid...

HE has shown that we are just friend,

why I gave such of reason,

I still have chance to restore our relationship.

actually is.....

no more chance.

haiz....

Don't say the bad thing.

come comment about the photo...

I like to capture the lighting design recently.

it really unique, and creative,

I really to admire it's owner who create the lighting very well.

haha!!

random here.

I like follow my feel,

I dont like to force myself what I dont like to do.

everytime record his thing started feel boring,

it s useless....

record for what...

for fun...

talk myself.....

crazy...wahaha!!

stupid..

 

Just now, had a stupid guy chat with me.

He called me stupid,

really suitable me what..

He like chat with me eventhough we no such of topic

Finally,whole day rest at home.

the another stupid guy also,

HE whole night din sleep,

then noon only go to sleep,

before that, HE keep said disadvantage of sleep late,

now who sleep late?!

Im replied his sms in noon,

HE sleeping,

then I make mistake againnnnnnnn....

what you waiting for,

he rather replied the FB comment and ignore your SMS,

shuhui wake up yourself,

waste your time on the rubbish.

stop do it...

enjoy saturday not get suffer on the day...

woo...

release all

sleep!!

I like the photo what I took!!!!

YOU

I'm admit that I feel disappoint when you get the lower mark.
I try my best to explain and repeat such time let you know how to do the question,
Finally...you answered me the shit answer.

Ok...I'm really an impatient people,
but I control my temper,I don't want angry infront of you,
I know what happen after I do that.

haiz...accept the truth!
Nowaday, the attitude of student really unreasonable,
she is a clever student yet she don't want concentrate in her study.

maybe I not qualified to scold her,
actually I am a bad student too.
my tutor put a lot of expectation on our assignment,
finally she get a lot of disappoint..

Maybe some of us really no such idea on assignment,
and some of us really can't digest what you taught,
you tried to train us be the best,
But I just want be normal.

Im not the talent AND I also don't want be the talent.

Just be myself.

**feel surprise..he didn't reply today,
   I wont worried and angry,also didn't waiting or what.
   whatever lah..
   everything already out of control......

So...
stop put such expectation on anything or anyONE..

YOU can do it...

Finally..I can lying on the bed right now^^

Sms time

Finally,I done my english presentation.
I spend whole midnight to prepare and read all the information.

Woo...I feeeelt proud,eventhough I spoke the english not really fluent at all,
but I had confident present until finish.
The tutor give the comment have good also have bad.
nevermind,learn from mistake,rite?!

I cant control myself, I so nervous that day and forgot bring my hp to college,
I wanna share this good news to him,
don't know why I told myself, I should told him this good news.

I know...If I didnt sms me,he wont find me also.
So that, I sms him.

I dont have put any hope in this sms,
because long time sms with him,
so just share with him but dont want waiting his sms.

He replied me in the night,
that happen was never occur before.
Normally, he less replied me in night,
happy.

I am be evil recently,
I didnt replied him,
maybe not used.

I like his sms,
I like share something with him,
I like our pattern,
I like the way we talk,
I like your sms in my hp.
This is what you gave me a warm feel,
I LOVE...

I dont know we will how in future,
I know I cant forget in the time,
AND I really scared if lost contact with YOU.

at LAST, I would say although this photo long time already,
but I still keep it, because it is our memory.

I will stand beside see you when hold your girlfriend hand if you have Girlfriend in future,
bless YOU....

calling

Wow...happy today!
dont know why heard his sound I really excited and hard to say my feeling now.
Actually, Im struggle before call him.
Im worried he dont want pick up my phone then just ignore my calling.

Ok...Im admit, I FEEL dissapoint when he miss my 2 call.
then lost direction and sad continue found out the way.
Few minute,his sms came.
Im surprise for that and call him again,
He did answer me also,Im angry.

Finally he call me.
I heard his voice qiute excited,
then I dispassionate asked him how to found the way.
He told me patiently.
I like his voice.its mature and calm,
that why I cant waive him, even he belong to other.
Yoo...long time din sms him,
now I called him, but not said miss him, just ask something.

Now...I want to say I really miss you.
sososo much...
Waiting for you?!
hmm...maybe!

18/7/2011
Hope...

Angry

Wow...what a lucky day today..
Our presentation all the bad comment,
yea...the tutor before already said our storyboard really 'safe',
but at the first,We choose DOG Dry food that really challege us...
besides,the dog is hyper active,hard to capture satistied photo..

not only that, my english problem occur in presentation again...
Damn,fuck!@#$%^&*()
why I can speak fluence english?!

I wanna be others like my classmate,can steady stand infont and expain or brief their idea,
me?!

just feel nervous, and very very very confuse when I was presented my idea.
even that, I cant speak my feeling when the tutor gave our chance to defense.
im really useless.

I wont give up myself.I know my english level really low,
how to upgrade it?!so that, I decide reopen this blog and all use english write down my feeling,
I think tomorrow my classmate may guilt,but cant blame them,they just said their opinion.

The another bad news is our second asssginment score the lowest mark...
WTF...
51..oh my goodness,
I think is my fault,I implicate other member,
I never get this mark before,
Year 2 sem1,fast pass it,
the midterm,final,welcome...
I will do my best...

I not a strawberry,I am Durian...
dont hurt myself,just protect myself and pretent when hurt other...
move on...

Nobody fault.
that is community fault...
><

after I watched about my ex-idol marriage video.
I felt warm and happy,
the bad mood suddenly dissapear in my mind.

Hope this assignment can get a nice mark...

after this I will pretent and close my eyes,
dont want c their face.

The community so cruel,
what can I do only can success?!
ask myself...