Stress

Hate this production,really get stress recently.
I really don't know how to use sony vegas,
How to create the video?!

no more time to learn such thing,
force myself learn these thing in the shortest time.
It really sacrifice me,I need help.

I've sit in the corner.
feel like useless,wanna cry badly but cant make the sound.
just can cry quietly.

I wont feel the team work when all of group member stay together,
like stranger stay together finish the shooting then back home.
its silly and boring.

I need your encourage,
I also need your big hug support me until finish the editing.
I also also need your sms accompany me solve every problem.

I'm contradiction.
hate Saturday, also like Saturday so much.

I'm stuck here.
I've hope receive a special SMS but I need the time to get some rest at the same time.

I feel that REST is the most important for me.

So that..SLEEP now!
Sony vegas....ignore it temporarily.

Good night World.
and
GOOD NIGHT DEAR^^

Now,you should enjoy your sweet time and dream someone><

Annoying

Don't know why I could not face this assginment,

my position is Editor,

don't have any editing skill,

but I know,I will learn.

I scared.

scared I could not do well,

every position also important,

hope all done successfully.

Today,my brain think all of negative thought.

I think HE will ignore my sms,

When I received the sms, I thought that is rusbbish sms,

never think he will remember replied.

stupid...

HE has shown that we are just friend,

why I gave such of reason,

I still have chance to restore our relationship.

actually is.....

no more chance.

haiz....

Don't say the bad thing.

come comment about the photo...

I like to capture the lighting design recently.

it really unique, and creative,

I really to admire it's owner who create the lighting very well.

haha!!

random here.

I like follow my feel,

I dont like to force myself what I dont like to do.

everytime record his thing started feel boring,

it s useless....

record for what...

for fun...

talk myself.....

crazy...wahaha!!

stupid..

 

Just now, had a stupid guy chat with me.

He called me stupid,

really suitable me what..

He like chat with me eventhough we no such of topic

Finally,whole day rest at home.

the another stupid guy also,

HE whole night din sleep,

then noon only go to sleep,

before that, HE keep said disadvantage of sleep late,

now who sleep late?!

Im replied his sms in noon,

HE sleeping,

then I make mistake againnnnnnnn....

what you waiting for,

he rather replied the FB comment and ignore your SMS,

shuhui wake up yourself,

waste your time on the rubbish.

stop do it...

enjoy saturday not get suffer on the day...

woo...

release all

sleep!!

I like the photo what I took!!!!

YOU

I'm admit that I feel disappoint when you get the lower mark.
I try my best to explain and repeat such time let you know how to do the question,
Finally...you answered me the shit answer.

Ok...I'm really an impatient people,
but I control my temper,I don't want angry infront of you,
I know what happen after I do that.

haiz...accept the truth!
Nowaday, the attitude of student really unreasonable,
she is a clever student yet she don't want concentrate in her study.

maybe I not qualified to scold her,
actually I am a bad student too.
my tutor put a lot of expectation on our assignment,
finally she get a lot of disappoint..

Maybe some of us really no such idea on assignment,
and some of us really can't digest what you taught,
you tried to train us be the best,
But I just want be normal.

Im not the talent AND I also don't want be the talent.

Just be myself.

**feel surprise..he didn't reply today,
   I wont worried and angry,also didn't waiting or what.
   whatever lah..
   everything already out of control......

So...
stop put such expectation on anything or anyONE..

YOU can do it...

Finally..I can lying on the bed right now^^

Sms time

Finally,I done my english presentation.
I spend whole midnight to prepare and read all the information.

Woo...I feeeelt proud,eventhough I spoke the english not really fluent at all,
but I had confident present until finish.
The tutor give the comment have good also have bad.
nevermind,learn from mistake,rite?!

I cant control myself, I so nervous that day and forgot bring my hp to college,
I wanna share this good news to him,
don't know why I told myself, I should told him this good news.

I know...If I didnt sms me,he wont find me also.
So that, I sms him.

I dont have put any hope in this sms,
because long time sms with him,
so just share with him but dont want waiting his sms.

He replied me in the night,
that happen was never occur before.
Normally, he less replied me in night,
happy.

I am be evil recently,
I didnt replied him,
maybe not used.

I like his sms,
I like share something with him,
I like our pattern,
I like the way we talk,
I like your sms in my hp.
This is what you gave me a warm feel,
I LOVE...

I dont know we will how in future,
I know I cant forget in the time,
AND I really scared if lost contact with YOU.

at LAST, I would say although this photo long time already,
but I still keep it, because it is our memory.

I will stand beside see you when hold your girlfriend hand if you have Girlfriend in future,
bless YOU....

calling

Wow...happy today!
dont know why heard his sound I really excited and hard to say my feeling now.
Actually, Im struggle before call him.
Im worried he dont want pick up my phone then just ignore my calling.

Ok...Im admit, I FEEL dissapoint when he miss my 2 call.
then lost direction and sad continue found out the way.
Few minute,his sms came.
Im surprise for that and call him again,
He did answer me also,Im angry.

Finally he call me.
I heard his voice qiute excited,
then I dispassionate asked him how to found the way.
He told me patiently.
I like his voice.its mature and calm,
that why I cant waive him, even he belong to other.
Yoo...long time din sms him,
now I called him, but not said miss him, just ask something.

Now...I want to say I really miss you.
sososo much...
Waiting for you?!
hmm...maybe!

18/7/2011
Hope...

Angry

Wow...what a lucky day today..
Our presentation all the bad comment,
yea...the tutor before already said our storyboard really 'safe',
but at the first,We choose DOG Dry food that really challege us...
besides,the dog is hyper active,hard to capture satistied photo..

not only that, my english problem occur in presentation again...
Damn,fuck!@#$%^&*()
why I can speak fluence english?!

I wanna be others like my classmate,can steady stand infont and expain or brief their idea,
me?!

just feel nervous, and very very very confuse when I was presented my idea.
even that, I cant speak my feeling when the tutor gave our chance to defense.
im really useless.

I wont give up myself.I know my english level really low,
how to upgrade it?!so that, I decide reopen this blog and all use english write down my feeling,
I think tomorrow my classmate may guilt,but cant blame them,they just said their opinion.

The another bad news is our second asssginment score the lowest mark...
WTF...
51..oh my goodness,
I think is my fault,I implicate other member,
I never get this mark before,
Year 2 sem1,fast pass it,
the midterm,final,welcome...
I will do my best...

I not a strawberry,I am Durian...
dont hurt myself,just protect myself and pretent when hurt other...
move on...

Nobody fault.
that is community fault...
><

after I watched about my ex-idol marriage video.
I felt warm and happy,
the bad mood suddenly dissapear in my mind.

Hope this assignment can get a nice mark...

after this I will pretent and close my eyes,
dont want c their face.

The community so cruel,
what can I do only can success?!
ask myself...